The Number 100 & the Time We Have
100 Kettlebell Swings.
100 Repetitions of an exercise of your choice.
What is it? you ask.
A warm-up? Can’t be a workout, can it?
100 years of age.
I don’t get it? you say.
I’ve mentioned, as of late, my career (nursing) has been taking a lot of my time. Luckily, by choice. By a conscious, calculated set of choices I made.
I’ve had to make some adjustments and decisions recently with where I have been choosing to spend my time.
I love my website. I love fitness. I love real food, a bit too much? I love nursing. I love ER nursing, trauma nursing. I love helping others. I love my family. I love supporting up-and-coming businesses. I love connecting with all of you.
^Not in any particular order.
All of these things take time.
- Behind the scenes on the website takes houuursssss.
- Fitness takes time out of the day.
- Food and cooking can take as little or as much time as you’d like.
- Nursing has long shifts and odd hours – which naturally, as a glutton of punishmen, I love.
- ER and trauma nursing is my passion, and a completely separate beast of its own.
- Helping others. My MO. Can’t help others without spending time with them. Giving someone your time is one of the most VALUABLE gifts you can give. You never get that time back, they don’t either.
- My family deserves my time and my undivided attention. Memories made with people you love are some of the best of the time spent in this life.
- Up-and-coming entrepreneurs are some of my favorite people and businesses to support with my time. The passion they have for what they do makes time supporting them worth every minute.
- Connecting with all of you is a blessing – one thing that takes time that I am very thankful for.
Time is a beautiful thing, that once it has been spent, you cannot get back. This is both a blessing and a curse. If you choose to spend your time wisely with only the best intentions in mind, it is a blessing. If you spend it without choice, “waste” it, it can be a curse. When older patients I have tell me “It’s hell getting old,” and “one day you’ll know too – I’m old now. Nothing works the way it used to.” I always respond with, “Unfortunately, the sands of time stop for no-one,” as I smile at them with empathy, but the inability to full understand. They always smile. They smile because they know better than I do how that feels. They smile because I understand enough that I will too, one day be old. I will too, one day need a helping hand. And I will too, hope that I have a nurse that takes that extra minute and gives me that extra smile if I have a need, as they do now. The more I think about it, the more I think I should take away “unfortunately” out of that statement I say often. It may not be unfortunate that the sands of time stop for no-one. Maybe it’s the best fortune we’ve been given. Maybe it’s given to make us realize how important the time we DO have is. Maybe it’s given to us to remind us to consciously decide what we’re filling our time with. Maybe it’s give to us to make us realize how important it is to see the positive, to help others, to smile, to be thankful. Maybe it’s really a very fortunate part of life.
A few months ago, I was spreading myself too thin. Going in too many directions. This caused stress, anxiety over “not getting done what I was supposed to,” on a to-do list made by me. I sat down with my rock, who helped me weigh out my options, different avenues I could take, and where I would be happiest, most successful (remember – success is whatever YOU define it to be). I have made many conscious choices that I will keep evaluating and tweak or completely change as necessary at that point.
A few choices I have made:
I have chosen to make an investment in an increased time commitment to my nursing career. I truly love nursing, I truly love ER and trauma nursing. I have a very large passion for what I do. I want to soak up every bit of knowledge I can about the field every day I work, I want to take it as far as I choose to take it. I want to continue to help save lives. I went into nursing after seeing my brother lacerate his spleen when we were younger. I took him to the ER. I saw them work on him, be compassionate to my best friend in the entire world on one of the worst days of his entire life. I saw them smile at him and joke with him, make him laugh. From this point forward I knew I wanted to be a nurse. I wanted and still want many things…
- To be a nurse thrown into the most critical of situations.
- To have the patients who were having the worst days of their lives.
- To have the most difficult patients.
- To have the most ornery patients.
To sum it up: Every day I continue to want to care for people on the worst days of their lives, help make them better, and put a smile on their face while I do that.
Many people want easy days at work. I want the hardest days. I want the most chaotic days. I want to have it all thrown at me. I want to make a difference in my patients’ lives. I want to make a difference in their family’s lives. I want to be the nurse that they remember made them smile while their arm was hanging off their body. I want to be the nurse that they remember holding their hand as their loved one passed. I want the good stories and the bad. I have many stories in my brain from the many ER nursing hours I have worked, and I cannot wait, each day, to gain more. Not to tell over the dinner table or to my nursing friends (although we all know an ER nurse has some wicked humor ), but because each story is a life touched. To me, this is something I have chosen to dedicate a lot of time to. I have chosen to push myself, put myself in situations and in the right situations to gain the knowledge and experience I have and want. This is important to me. That one smile, that one hand touch, that one look from the patient that knows I actually care, that I am there for them. That’s why I do this.
2. Company Relationships
I had an opportunity offered to me recently by a large company that wanted to have me as an ambassador. There’s no need to disclose names – I’m sure many of you can figure this out. It is a fantastic company with fantastic employees and fantastic product. I still have a great relationship with this company, believe in their mission, wish them nothing but the best, and may work with them at some point in the future if the opportunity and time is right for both parties. At this time, I have chosen not to sign on as an ambassador for many reasons. I want to stay authentic to me. I love supporting up-and-coming entrepreneurs, which I would have been unable to do. The passion the small business people have for what they do makes me feel that the time I spend on supporting these smaller brands sporadically is where my authenticity and my heart is at in regards to working with companies. I need to stay authentic to myself and to my readers and my values in order for this website to work. In order for me to be happy with what I’m doing. In order for me to stay true to my values and what I want to be and do and give in life. I hope that this does not disappoint anyone. From what I’ve learned, it’s so important to be honest, be real, be truthful, and authentic. When you do this, the response can only be positive, and you can only be happy with your choices. I wanted to share this with all of you because I am sure many of you have been wondering what was going on with that business relationship. Now you’re up to date. I will continue to work with small brands, medium size brands, even some large brands, depending on the opportunity, the incentive for all of you, and each time will be on an individual basis. I love being able to review things for you, tell you things I’ve been loving lately. I’ve always done that and have chosen that that will not change.
3. My Site
I have chosen to continue my blog, my website, my social media channels, working with small brands. I love this site, I love sharing things with you. I love the release of writing things out. I love interacting with all of you on all of the social media channels, seeing how awesome you all are doing with your goals, answering your questions, asking you questions. You all inspire me daily, and I would never want to stop connecting in that way. I have chosen not to “promise” how many posts I’ll be writing. I have chosen not to “promise” how often I’ll be active online. Funniest thing has occurred. Even with my increased time and workload in relation to my nursing career, I have been posting more. Why? Because I took away the pressure I had on myself to “get posts done NOW.” That gave me writers block. Now that I’m back to writing because I want to share things with you and help you through life as I’m learning my own things, I’m back to posting more. No promises though ! Back to being authentic hm? It’s a beautiful, beautiful thing.
I will continue to work out. It is very important and I feel better when I do it. I will not dedicate hours every day like I once did. I simply do not have the time to do that, get adequate sleep, work more than one nursing job, and write here. I will work out at home, as I have been doing for almost a year now, with the equipment I have here. I will work out when I can, hopefully 3-4x/week. I will move when I can. Luckily, ER nursing is a profession where I never sit. I am thankful for that, and was part of the draw for me. This brings me to the number 100 I was talking about earlier. The beginning of november brought extra workload nursing-wise into my life, by my own choice, and I am very thankful for the extra work I sought out. That does mean less time for workouts. Every day in november I have done 100 repetitions of an exercise. Mainly squats or kettlebell swings. I have worked out on my off days, but those are few and far between.
I have made the time daily to do 100 repetitions of an exercise of my choice.
Sometimes it was 50 in the morning.
Sometimes 50 in the evening.
Sometimes 100 inbetween my first job and my second job.
Sometimes 25 here, 30 there, until I reach 100.
Meeting a small goal, daily, has brought confidence to me. It seems small, may seem silly. But having that goal, and accomplishing it, even in the midst of my self-created chaos, has created a calm in that chaos. Sweating will always be a huge part of my life, sometimes more time will be available, sometimes less. I will always make time for sweating. Even if it’s only 5 minutes before work and 5 minutes after a 12 hour shift. I will make it work, and am learning to be flexible with this. Being rigid makes it hard. I used to be rigid with my fitness, and that cause much pain when changes were needed. Being flexible in regards to fitting it in has decreased my stress levels two-fold.
I will continue to eat healthy food. I have tried many diets, many nutritional approaches. I have come back to just eating real food, paleo-ish many times. No artificial anything, no sugar free anything, almost nothing processed. It’s what my body likes. It’s what my mind likes. It’s what tastes best to me. I eat a lot of meat – I try to do organic. I eat a lot of eggs – I always do organic/cage free. I eat a good number of veggies, both fibrous and non (sweet potatoes rock!). I eat veggies often through things like spirulina and wheat grass powders when I’m feeling veggie-lazy. Yes, it’s a term that I made up, but you know you’ve felt veggie-lazy at some point too! I eat a LOT of healthy fat. Coconut oil, avocado, egg yolks, chia seeds/hemp seeds, nuts sparingly that I’m not intolerant too (slowly healing some intolerances), cacao. I eat some fruits – dates, bananas, raisins. I eat things like larabars, ostrim sticks and protein powder when I’m on the go. I eat chocolate. Often. With no guilt ! I eat some gluten free bread from time to time, and some cottage cheese from time to time. Are those “paleo”? No. I’m not paleo. I just eat real food, that is paleo-ish. It’s how I explain it so people can visualize what I eat. It’s not something I’m rigid about anymore. Again, just like fitness, I used to be VERY rigid with my eating. Too rigid. It led to eating disorders and disordered thoughts about eating and deprivation and food. I now am not rigid. I’m flexible. I do stay away from trigger foods – which I will post about more soon – because sometimes moderation doesn’t work. Stay tuned for that post – it’s a GREAT one. I now eat when I’m hungry, stop mostly when I’m full (unless the chocolate just tastes soooo good ). I eat more intuitively. I no longer count calories or macros. I eat generally high protein, high fat, and moderate/lower carb (but not LOW carb). I eat at least 2200 calories a day if I had to make a rough estimate. At one point I was lucky if I would let myself eat 1200. That was at least 1000 calories under maintenance. Not healthy. Not ok. And since, I’ve promised myself deprivation will never happen again. This is a zone where deprivation isn’t allowed. We work against deprivation. We work on love instead. I will continue to listen to my body and eat what makes me feel good, and stay away from things that make me feel bad. I will continue NOT to follow a “diet” or “nutrition group” because being rigid isn’t the way I want to spend the limited time I’ve given in this life. I also will continue to make fun recipes – I’ve been getting even more creative in the kitchen – plus it’s much more balanced with a holistic approach. You’ll love these new recipes I’ve got coming!
^Lasagna (left is “regular,” right is “healthified”) & a recent tasty meal of eggs, avocado & bacon!
I will continue to spend time with my family. Memories we make with those we love are precious, one of the most amazing things about this life and the time we’re given. I have made a conscious effort and will continue to work on turning off electronics around my family. I used to see myself and my family sitting together, all on our phones. I am working not to look at my phone while I’m with the people I love. I spend most of any free time I have with my boyfriend and my brother. They’re my rocks, and I can’t be thankful enough for the blessings they are in my life. Time with them is something I’ll always make time for and value.
^The brother. Love him to pieces & couldn’t ask for a better best friend.
7. Helping Others
I will always do everything I can to help others. It’s my MO. Remember no-one gets time back. Spend your time giving others what you would like them to give you. Smile at them, give them a helping hand, a penny at the register. Let’s bring back the willingness to help others. It’s a beautiful thing.
I will do my best to make time for you. I love hearing from all of you. I love your comments, I read EVERY. SINGLE. ONE. and try my best to respond. I love our interactions. I love answering your questions. Please reach out to me. I’m never too busy to try my best to reach all of you. I can’t promise a time-line on a response, or that it’ll be a long response, but I can promise that I’ll read your email, your comment, and I will do my best to respond!
I work hard on living my life by intention.
Living through my choices.
Not letting life pass me idly by.
Working in an ER makes me think twice about how much time I have in this world.
We never know when it’s our time.
We have to choose to make our time what we want it to be and fill our time with what we want it to be filled with.
I’ve added 100 repetitions of an exercise to my days in november. It’ll probably continue even after november’s time passes.
None of us know if we’ll reach 100 years of age.
Or really, even if we’ll have tomorrow.
I do know though, that with the days I am blessed and the time I am given…
- I am making conscious choices.
- I am helping others.
- I am smiling.
- I am trying very hard to live life without judgement.
- I am doing what I think is right at any given time. Not doing things because it’s easy, but doing things because it’s the right thing to do.
- I am spending time I have with those I love.
- I am living in a language all can understand…
- I cannot wait to hear what you’re doing with the time you’re blessed.
- Also – will you join me in 100 repetitions every day? Working on a hashtag now… ideas?